Thursday, June 30, 2005

sigh
a lot of things are happening lately again
its the same problems again
im trying to ignore it but apparently the problem is getting bigger and bigger
im just forced to deal with it
shit im really starting to think that im such a bitch
i dunno whether its pms or what
but its like i get pissed off at alot of insignificant stuff
i know its unimportant and yet i get so upset
i dont even understand why
maybe its just a phase im going through
but fuck why is this phase lasting so long.
im seriously sick of what im going through
and i know im like pissing everyone else off
but its not as if i can help it
and its not my choice that i want to make you unhappy


and i must say im not someone who can say things out like that
i must admit that im not as straightforward as other people
maybe because im very sensitive to how other people think about me
yes. im self conscious. i admit. im self conscious in every single way.
but can i help it? no.


and i really hate people who like make statements before they know whats going on
hello. you're not living my life.
and i dont have to tell you every single thing that i do.
so if you want to know
sorry. all i can say is. my life is not as simple as you think.
and its not that im 15 then i dont think about all these stuff.
in case you dont realise. i do. alot in fact.
im not as fucking childish as you think i am.


i really hope things can clear up.
and im not trying to pinpoint anyone by saying all these stuff in my post.
its just that.. i've been thinking about this for too long.


huiyi rants at 8:57 PM